today's question of the day is..

are you where you thought you would be? and how can you be sure you are in the right place?

i keep asking myself if i am because honestly not sure and i don't have a clear answer. but, am i suppose to know. when people ask me what do you want out of life, my answer is always i do not know.

currently i am in a spot where i don't know if i should stay, go right, left, up or down. now if only we could all get our britney on, sing a song, win a contest and head out to the city of angles and everything would be ok...lol ...but alas i am at a crossroad in my life and i am not sure if i should stay in nyc or try out another state or take the huge plunge and go abroad to spain, rome, barcelona, the list is endless. i am just not sure.

i keep looking for these "signs" that are suppose to be everywhere but clearly i don't see them. but today i thought to myself "what if you don't want to see them". insert shocked face! and if that's the case then i am in more trouble then i thought. -hahaha-

i have a good thing going here in nyc but i feel like there is so much more out there for me. the question is where and how can i know for sure. as many friends have told (nortie) you don't, move and try it out for a year if you hate leave.
it seems so easy but still i am here...argghh.

now do not for one second think that i am down in the dumps because that is furthest from the truth. i have had the most amazing birthday month ever. as it comes to a close i feel that i should go out with a bang.

i have amazing friends and the most amazing family ever. i am in the process of making a scrap book for this lovely lady right here..this is my grams. isn't she the cutest ever in life! and check her out when she was just a young little thing. this is on her wedding day.



i cant wait to make it out to california to see her and celebrate with my whole family in may. my goal to get a picture of her and her ten kids....i hope they all show up!!!